Today I Feel Insecure

used to think that instead of blood, I had insecurity running through my veins. I hated the way I looked so I don’t want to be in group pictures since I felt everyone was prettier than me. I believed with all my heart that no one would want to read anything I wrote. I would always compare myself to my friends who are all excellent in their own way. And in my fear and insecurity that others can do or say it better, I eventually silenced my voice. 

Eventually, I realized something had to drastically change: how I constantly compare myself to other people and how I generally feel about myself. I started making little changes. I took selfies until I got used to staring at my face. I sang to myself until I found out I liked my voice.  I started writing again and eventually discovered I actually liked how I wrote. I started appreciating the people around me instead of always thinking I was inferior compared to them.

I can’t really say that I’ve totally made peace with myself. But I can honestly say now that I actually like the me that I’ve become and the me that I think God wants me to be. And more importantly, I started to really accept that God loves me, scars, imperfections, insecurities and all.  Let us listen to the Truth and let the lies fade into background noise. 

IF YOU NEED TO DO SOMETHING:

List down the things that you think you’re good at. Add to this list every time you learn a new skill or talent.

JOURNALING PROMPT:

What are three quiet strengths or capabilities that I have that have nothing to do with external validation?